The Heroes in our generation

This post is long over due but I hope that the intent and message will still remain true.

This young mans name is Hilal Hr Hilal.Thats him after the commonwealth games in Delhi 2010 in which he got all those medals from swimming. This lad and his swimming mates from TALLIS Tanzania have made me prouder than I can ever put into words not just of being a Tanzanian but mostly of being from the same generation as him. Considering how much ridicule and backlash we get for not striving for anything or striving for things that are of no importance and will not be relevant in our lives. This is a way of saying thank you to their remarkable achievements and interestingly enough it has nothing to do with their performance in the 2010 games but rather what happen on December 21st 2011 which coincidently happen to be his birthday.

For those who don't know there was a tragedy in Dar-es-salaam, Tanzania during the festive season. There were huge rains that resulted in floods where many people died. Usually in such situations people want to preserve their own lives first before worrying about others. But on this day Hilal and his comrades put all common sense and sense of primal preservation aside as they themselves risked their own lives to save people who were stuck on the roof of houses.Hilal was at home when he read on facebook about how lifeguards were helping and actually left his house to go and help out. From the little I know it seems that they saved a family of 3 and a baby who was but a few weeks old. And as goes with our media such events were not covered. This is more than just a heroic act. These are the young people who will someday I believe will be a beacon (if they are not already) to the rest of us. Throwing all regards of self and selfishly going to help another person irregardless of race,gender,age,religion and social class.All that these lads wanted to do was to help. And that is a lesson and teaching I have taken to light. I apologize that I do not know the rest of team who were there but this article goes out to all of you for your deeds that I swear to you have been engraved into my heart and I will forever carry them with me. Pure human decency and kindness. Even if I cannot save lives as they did that day I will strive to have the resolve and heart these people had in their actions. This should be a lesson to us all. Hilal and friends I SALUTE YOU. And I hope whoever knows them or sees them will atleast shake their hand, give them a pat on the back or atleast say THANK YOU. I feel proud that I know one of you personally and even prouder that with all that you did that day you did not gloat look for popularity or anything of that sort. I give praise and thanks to your coaches and trainers for the skills they parted on to you, to your Mother and Sisters (Asmah and Leila) for raising such a fine young man and to you HILAL and FRIENDS for being who you are. I pray and hope that God/Allah will rain a thousand blessings your way.
Jah Bless

An observation

Whats good people?As customary of our social expectations I shall wish everyone a happy new year.Although for some its just another day.
So the whole concept of new year resolutions and starting a fresh has gotten almost sickening to me.This is because of the way we put the emphasis on that a new year bring forth new beginnings which in my personal opinion is just a bunch of bull.So the date at the end of the year has changed.Big deal.Whatever problems where there before will still be there no.They dont get resolved or solved just because the year changed.If you were to make a resolution or do whatever it is why wait till the new year to do so?If something is worth it and a person truely wants to do it you should start doing it the moment those thoughts enter your conscious mind.I think that at times we so so as an excuse to justify the procrastination we indulge in.
Its January now next month its Valentines day."The day of Love" as some people on this blue planet consider it.Most dont even know the history behind the day or how it came about.And no Im not going to go into a history lesson.Just google Saint Valentine and things related to the history and Im sure your questions will get answers.
I dont have a problem with the day per say but here is my logic.Why should it be one day in a year to show love and affection to a person.Shouldnt just do that on every single day?I mean why be all romantic on 1 day and not be for the rest.I mean a birthday is different since you can only be born once but you have everyday to show someone you care,cherish and love them.Im not saying its wrong to show some TLC on Valentines day but it shouldnt be just that one day that you'd go all out for your loved one.Do it at every moment and chance you can.
If you will do something then just take that step whenever it hits you.Dont wait for a specific date to make that change unless that change can only start being made on that day.
Jah Bless

King in the House

So I've had the priveledge of having my 18month year old cousin staying with us.When they say kids are the boss you better believe it.When he wakes up everyone else has got to wake up whether you like it or not.He dictates the terms and conditions in the house.All I can say is we all got to be thankful to our mothers.Cause raising us mustve been hell.Having a kid in the house sure makes you take things into consideration.Mine would be about being a parent.I keep wondering that even with my cousin I get as irritated and frustrated and I cant handle it as such even while on break and technically not having all that much work to do.How will it be when with working and a busy do how would I take care of my own child (thats hoping and praying someone will let me have a kid with them.Lol!).Will I be able to give the love and attention needed and have the patience and skills and all that.The worst part is at times I end up thinking I would be incapable of it.For no other reason than how I feel.Sometimes the lil man cries or wails and all and I feel detached and emotionless and at other times I tend to think I couldnt have the patience that comes with feeding him,bathing him but most importantly how to take care of such a fragile being while I hardly dont know how to take care of myself.But then he laughs or does something so small and it makes you melt.Children are a mystery thats why only one parent can understand another parents sorrow or happiness and struggles in regards to their kids.One things for sure though this lil guy has made me start rethinking things I had either forgotten about or pushed back to the back of my head.Now with them open I will then have to write up a bit more but for now this lil guy is my inspiration in his own way.His actually bouncing up and down on the bed and wailing as if his crying while in fact his just happy.He makes very interesting attachments but those are stories for another day.
Jah Bless

Is it enough?

Sooo of late I have been on a movie binge.I mean I watched,Conan The Barbarian,Change up,Crazy stupid Love,Barely Legal and alot of movies.Somewhere along the story line they always seem to be able to fit a plot of Love.Either parental,sibling,lovers or of any sort.
On a random day got into a talk with a friend.She being a strong believer in Love is enough.Since we have know eachother since childhood she kept giving examples of people we know who conquered all cause of the love they had and beat all odds so to speak.Granted there was merit in what she said.And we left it at that cause lets face it I wasnt going to win that argument.
Staying in my room in the late hours of the night I started to think it over and over and this is my perspective or rather my experience in way.
I got to be honest (with myself mostly) I am in a way a romantic and do believe in those grand gestures of love (by grand I dont mean big).But with experience and time that outlook has been deminished into nothing more than a fantasy.When is it enough.Just the love you have or feel towards someone?Life always seems to get in the way.It could be that ex who messed up now everybody will be judged according to the faults of the previous.Could be parents or friends who just dont think the person is good enough or that they are not of an equal class and stature.In some instances you could put everything you have into it and yet hardly make a dent.Let me explain.Sometimes someone is able to make you feel so special and wonderful that regardless of anything going on in your own world and life when you with that person non of it matters.They take it all away and at times they do it even whne they do nothing at all.But at times you dont have the same effect on them for whatever reason.So some start asking if they are being fair to the other person or if its right for you to be given and take so much and yet not be able to do the same.
Im not saying this is always the case I mean we all know that couple or love story that we all thought wouldnt last but it did the weird thing is it seems that such scenarios dont apply to you.
Is it really enough to put everything on the line for the one you love or is there more?Does the timing matter?Is it all determined by your own actions or everything comes into play?
I mean is it enough to move countries to be with someone you love or is the love you have enough to last through that distance?
So many questions came up with an infinate number of possible answers.At times and with certain people be it luck or some hand of fate it works out regardless of what comes their way.And we all in one way or another wish it was us.And at times it doesnt work regardless of what you do try.
The worst part is the what if question.What if I did or didnt do this and that and so on.Asking yourself and replaying things trying to fix them in your mind.That could drive you insane.
To cut things short I cant say for a fact if love is enough or not cause I think you can only truely say that if it indeed it is/was enough for you.If it conquered all and prevailed in your case.The most I think is to give it all you got,hope and pray for the best.And if it doesnt work out. . . . .
Jah Bless

The beings inside us!

Its fierce face plagued my dreams.I awoke in the stillness of the night consumed by fear and dread.
It stalks me in the silence of my mind,in the depth of my heart and even in the confines of my soul.
I feel it wanting to take over me,I hear it whispering in my ears.I shudder to imagine what such montrousity can do if unleashed.And in the cold of the night as I slumbered it broke free of the bonds I had created.
I opened my eyes to see ashes on the floor.
I heard the burning and sizzling,the ashes glow and become brighter.A orange bluish flames comes up but there is no smoke.I see a movement then another as it lifts itself and then I hear the shriek and I fall upon the floor thinking this is the end.
First a wing then another as a head claws its way from the ashy abiss.It lifts its head,its flaming white eyes bore into mine as it moved closer and closer and looked right into my soul.
The flames around it seemed to be dancing around in joyus victory.Glowing brighter and brighter and intensifying.What i found most unnerving is peaceful calm and sernity I felt in such fierceness.
And though the flames did not burn or scorch a thing it surrounded me and filled me with an uncanny comfort and warmth.Carrying me of the floor and putting me on my feet as IT looked at me with a face filled with an unknown hunger and passion.
Then I heard it say,"We are one,we always will be and forever." I am what resides within the core of thy being.I am your essence,I am your powerI am your will.I am what rises when you fall.I am your beginning and thine end.I always was,is and always will be for as long as life is within thee.I will never perish for I am THE PHOENIX whom shall forever rise from the ashes.

My greatest fear

He stumbled,he fell!He lay there on the floor.Feeling the choking effect as IT surrounded him.Curling himself into a ball and holding his ears to keep the voices from taking over.The cold touch penetrates his chest like a hot knife through butter! It takes a hold of his heart he wants to scream but no voice comes out.As he gasps for air as he chokes in his own misery,he hears a small voice form a distant past.
"You can make it" Just a bit further.I await thee at the end.He makes a resolve,blood turning hot,eyes feeled with determination.He stands,even as IT girps he tighter.He wobbles,but pushes even harder,puts his all into this final endevour.He runs to the end of the tunnel.Sees light and jumps towards it. As he reaches the edge he hopes its come to an end only to find that his falls.It was all a trap,a trick!
He fell down into the abyss of Darkness!Going deeper and deeper!Then silence. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
He awoke only to find it had happen in the emptyness of his mind,and his heart was held in her sweet little hands!
As she snuggled up next to him,with her finger in her mouth.

Jah Bless

Giving your word

Whats good people.Its been a minute since I wrote.Alot of things happening.I will get to that later.But for now Im here to talk about giving someone your word.
Its really easy to say you got someones back or that you will be there for them.Thats until shit hits the fan (things go bad).When that happens things turn U.G.L.Y the worst part is when things arent going well thats when all those promises and all mean alot.Cause if you go against them (wether you were the victim or the wrong doer) then it means they were said in haste and not really meant.Its alot worse when you are the victim and its so much easier to turn your back on someone (be it your family,friends or lovers).But here is the thing why did you give your word in the first place?If it wasnt cause you believed and felt the person was worth it then by all means break it.But if it was cause it was worth it then dont.Its a verbal contract with the other person but mostly with yourself cause you told yourself no matter what comes down the way you would keep it.That means even if keeping your word means you will get hurt then buckle up and take it.Hard as it may be.Dont say something or give your word unless you willing to go all the way regards of the consequences.
Jah Bless!