Untitled XIV

Beauty is mysterious and an enigma,

It rarely in what we see but it is in what we feel from those things around us or in what is said,
The openness, the intensity, the raw reality, the love we shared and made,
It wasn’t just physical or because we both hadn’t found someone to spark that part of us that would ignite into an inferno,
It was emotional and more,
It reached into us both,
Broke barriers and boundaries,
It transcended whatever climactic ending I could ever have thought of,
With that one act everything just seemed to make sense and at the same time open up further questions and it rattled things to the core,
Shaken completely the both of us,
Not like the aftermath of an Earth Quake,
But like a large oak tree on the first spring day shaking away the snow from its leaves,
To let the sun shine and warm it again,
To feel the wind blow,
To be born again,
To flourish,
To grow,
To blossom,
I saw beauty with you,
Not in what we did for though it was magical it wasn’t the beauty I saw or felt,
It was after,
As we lay there breathing,
In tune,
The world disappearing,
Nothing else mattering but that moment,
With no separation where you begin and I end,
Time seeming still,
In those small gestures,
Those instances,
You showed me beauty,
The beauty of US.

Jah Bless

Untitled XII

Every minute away from you feels like a life time

Am still for the day you said you'd be mine
I quiver from just the sound of your voice
I still stand and uphold my choice
With each passing day I have a reason to rejoice
I know I sound crazy even a bit ridiculous
But I can't stop thinking of us
What I feel ain't just a crush
or me having a mere feeling of lust
I finally have a cause thats just
To make someone happy
To remove and cast
Away the pain and suffering of the past
I have no reason to test
Cause with you I've been blessed
You are better than all the rest
If your love was a bullet
It would penetrate my vest
And hit me hard in my chest
Right into the core of my heart
I will not let you fall
I'll give you my heart and all
You are my one and only queen
Hopefully we'll be together till I can give you a ring
Make you my wife
Be with you to the end of my life.

Jah Bless

Untitled XI

Look at me when I'm talking to you
Don't give me lip or attitude
Even with your fibs I hear the truth in your lies
I see the broken pillars holding up your pride
I see the hurt behind those eyes
I see the blood on your hands
I hear your muffled screams
Echoing in the vaults of your mind
I'm always with you when your all alone
I'm the one who shows you when you looking wrong
I see the hunger within your soul
I see the reason behind your smiles
I know your deepest and darkest
I know your worst and shame
The guilt behind the disguise
I see how your unsatisfied
I look not at you but through and into
Seeing no one by your side
I am the only one who understand you
Knows the secret behind those scars
Do you taste that?
The bile in your throat
From the depths of your own
The sickening feeling
The repulsion
The rejection
And yet its only I who sees it
I am you and you are me
You can smirk and shake your head
Fight and struggle
Do it all or do nothing
But I am your only true and oldest friend
Through the rise and falls
I tell you no one will know you as I do
I touch your being through this polished one way glass
Run,go play along
I will see you again
As you turn to look at me,you,us
I smirk and wink
Vanishing into the mirror. 

Jah Bless

Untitled X

You feel chained
Your heart is stained
You have endured torture and pain
Hurt from your soul to your brain
Till you want to board the death train
Filled up with thoughts
As if you’re whole being has been caught
The more you struggled and harder you fought
The deeper you sank into the ground
And you realize how your situation is so profound
Feeling as if you losing your sanity
Everything is crumbling down inside you
Still don’t know why you took that route
Still don’t know what this is all about
It gets to a point where you just scream and shout
Not knowing why you have to get so hurt
Not knowing how much more you can work
As if you been cursed from the start
You out of place and it’s as if you shouldn’t be a part
With your black, infected soul
And you corrupted heart
But still you wonder
If you hang on and struggle a bit longer
Will you survive
Or hurtle down to the dark abyss. 

Jah Bless

Untitled IX

Broken heart and shattered dreams
A life you’ve been living where nothing is what it seems
Were you have no one to trust to the end
Your greatest enemy is your closest friend
Your heart, mind and soul
Have been ripped apart and will never be whole
You’re filled with an emptiness that is accompanied by sorrow
Making you pray and wish you won’t live to see tomorrow
When finally you realize it’s too late
You didn’t have time to utter your fate
Feeling there’s nothing worth to give
No reason for you to live
Your soul is crushed until it no longer exists
Your mind is so confused you can no longer think
Your heart no longer beats
With the love and care as before
You have nothing to show
For the life you’ve lived in this world we know.

Jah Bless

Untitled VIII

Arms that are left empty with no one to hold
A heart left lonely with nothing at all
A soul that has been left to fall
And a path lying ahead, with nowhere to go
Feeling as if you are locked up in a dark void
With nowhere to go and no one to turn to
Living in a world, that only you know
Your heart is crushed with the hardships of life
Tormented by the things you’ve seen and the actions that have been done upon you
Made not only by people but also by the Karma surrounding you
Making you cower in a shell
Blinding yourself from the world
Hoping you will cease to exist
Your mind was once whole and centered
Your ambitions and hopes
Your dreams joy and jokes
Are all shattered apart
And all that is left is a mere shell of what once used to be
And all you have to keep company in a mind that is already fogged by the harshness of life
Is the cruelty you’ve endured
And the nightmares that molest you as you sleep.
You wake up every day and you fight your fears
You try your best to hold back your tears
You feel as if you’ve been stabbed in the heart
Your whole world and all you have lived for is torn apart
You have no one to go to
Nothing you see around you is true
You’re filled up with thoughts
Your soul is hit by jolts of the heartache you feel
No longer possessing a passionate flare
You look into the mirror and start to stare
You can’t comprehend what you’ve become
What you do
How you feel
What you’ve gotten yourself into is nothing like you
Falling in deeper and deeper
Into the pitch of misery, despair and sorrow
You’re trying to hold on
Asking for a helping hand
But no one is willing to show they care
Willing to help
To acknowledge what you’re going through is unfair
Then you are faced with the worst obstacle of all
To let go and fall
Or to try and give it your best
Pick yourself up and get back on track
For those who love and need you most.

Jah Bless

Untitled VII

The waves at night on the shore are soothing.

They come in slow and spread out so far.

Half the time you don’t realize how far until you feel the water under your feet.

They can corrode the thickest stone and the way the waters flow, they can make a path in places that were inaccessible before.

And yet they can be raging and power.

They can destroy in a storm and give way to the birth of a rainbow when the sun rises.

They can keep you warm when you are cold and freshen you.

They are a beauty and give life

They can cleanse and make anew.

They reminded me of something I once heard/read.

When you have that one person in your life then everything else in your world could be crumbling and breaking but so long as they are there then your world will always be whole and protected since that one person is your peace and refuge.

The waves were you.

Jah Bless