Sooo of late I have been on a movie binge.I mean I watched,Conan The Barbarian,Change up,Crazy stupid Love,Barely Legal and alot of movies.Somewhere along the story line they always seem to be able to fit a plot of Love.Either parental,sibling,lovers or of any sort.
On a random day got into a talk with a friend.She being a strong believer in Love is enough.Since we have know eachother since childhood she kept giving examples of people we know who conquered all cause of the love they had and beat all odds so to speak.Granted there was merit in what she said.And we left it at that cause lets face it I wasnt going to win that argument.
Staying in my room in the late hours of the night I started to think it over and over and this is my perspective or rather my experience in way.
I got to be honest (with myself mostly) I am in a way a romantic and do believe in those grand gestures of love (by grand I dont mean big).But with experience and time that outlook has been deminished into nothing more than a fantasy.When is it enough.Just the love you have or feel towards someone?Life always seems to get in the way.It could be that ex who messed up now everybody will be judged according to the faults of the previous.Could be parents or friends who just dont think the person is good enough or that they are not of an equal class and stature.In some instances you could put everything you have into it and yet hardly make a dent.Let me explain.Sometimes someone is able to make you feel so special and wonderful that regardless of anything going on in your own world and life when you with that person non of it matters.They take it all away and at times they do it even whne they do nothing at all.But at times you dont have the same effect on them for whatever reason.So some start asking if they are being fair to the other person or if its right for you to be given and take so much and yet not be able to do the same.
Im not saying this is always the case I mean we all know that couple or love story that we all thought wouldnt last but it did the weird thing is it seems that such scenarios dont apply to you.
Is it really enough to put everything on the line for the one you love or is there more?Does the timing matter?Is it all determined by your own actions or everything comes into play?
I mean is it enough to move countries to be with someone you love or is the love you have enough to last through that distance?
So many questions came up with an infinate number of possible answers.At times and with certain people be it luck or some hand of fate it works out regardless of what comes their way.And we all in one way or another wish it was us.And at times it doesnt work regardless of what you do try.
The worst part is the what if question.What if I did or didnt do this and that and so on.Asking yourself and replaying things trying to fix them in your mind.That could drive you insane.
To cut things short I cant say for a fact if love is enough or not cause I think you can only truely say that if it indeed it is/was enough for you.If it conquered all and prevailed in your case.The most I think is to give it all you got,hope and pray for the best.And if it doesnt work out. . . . .
Jah Bless
Sunday, 20 November 2011
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
The beings inside us!
Its fierce face plagued my dreams.I awoke in the stillness of the night consumed by fear and dread.
It stalks me in the silence of my mind,in the depth of my heart and even in the confines of my soul.
I feel it wanting to take over me,I hear it whispering in my ears.I shudder to imagine what such montrousity can do if unleashed.And in the cold of the night as I slumbered it broke free of the bonds I had created.
I opened my eyes to see ashes on the floor.
I heard the burning and sizzling,the ashes glow and become brighter.A orange bluish flames comes up but there is no smoke.I see a movement then another as it lifts itself and then I hear the shriek and I fall upon the floor thinking this is the end.
First a wing then another as a head claws its way from the ashy abiss.It lifts its head,its flaming white eyes bore into mine as it moved closer and closer and looked right into my soul.
The flames around it seemed to be dancing around in joyus victory.Glowing brighter and brighter and intensifying.What i found most unnerving is peaceful calm and sernity I felt in such fierceness.
And though the flames did not burn or scorch a thing it surrounded me and filled me with an uncanny comfort and warmth.Carrying me of the floor and putting me on my feet as IT looked at me with a face filled with an unknown hunger and passion.
Then I heard it say,"We are one,we always will be and forever." I am what resides within the core of thy being.I am your essence,I am your powerI am your will.I am what rises when you fall.I am your beginning and thine end.I always was,is and always will be for as long as life is within thee.I will never perish for I am THE PHOENIX whom shall forever rise from the ashes.
It stalks me in the silence of my mind,in the depth of my heart and even in the confines of my soul.
I feel it wanting to take over me,I hear it whispering in my ears.I shudder to imagine what such montrousity can do if unleashed.And in the cold of the night as I slumbered it broke free of the bonds I had created.
I opened my eyes to see ashes on the floor.
I heard the burning and sizzling,the ashes glow and become brighter.A orange bluish flames comes up but there is no smoke.I see a movement then another as it lifts itself and then I hear the shriek and I fall upon the floor thinking this is the end.
First a wing then another as a head claws its way from the ashy abiss.It lifts its head,its flaming white eyes bore into mine as it moved closer and closer and looked right into my soul.
The flames around it seemed to be dancing around in joyus victory.Glowing brighter and brighter and intensifying.What i found most unnerving is peaceful calm and sernity I felt in such fierceness.
And though the flames did not burn or scorch a thing it surrounded me and filled me with an uncanny comfort and warmth.Carrying me of the floor and putting me on my feet as IT looked at me with a face filled with an unknown hunger and passion.
Then I heard it say,"We are one,we always will be and forever." I am what resides within the core of thy being.I am your essence,I am your powerI am your will.I am what rises when you fall.I am your beginning and thine end.I always was,is and always will be for as long as life is within thee.I will never perish for I am THE PHOENIX whom shall forever rise from the ashes.
My greatest fear
He stumbled,he fell!He lay there on the floor.Feeling the choking effect as IT surrounded him.Curling himself into a ball and holding his ears to keep the voices from taking over.The cold touch penetrates his chest like a hot knife through butter! It takes a hold of his heart he wants to scream but no voice comes out.As he gasps for air as he chokes in his own misery,he hears a small voice form a distant past.
"You can make it" Just a bit further.I await thee at the end.He makes a resolve,blood turning hot,eyes feeled with determination.He stands,even as IT girps he tighter.He wobbles,but pushes even harder,puts his all into this final endevour.He runs to the end of the tunnel.Sees light and jumps towards it. As he reaches the edge he hopes its come to an end only to find that his falls.It was all a trap,a trick!
He fell down into the abyss of Darkness!Going deeper and deeper!Then silence. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
He awoke only to find it had happen in the emptyness of his mind,and his heart was held in her sweet little hands!
As she snuggled up next to him,with her finger in her mouth.
Jah Bless
"You can make it" Just a bit further.I await thee at the end.He makes a resolve,blood turning hot,eyes feeled with determination.He stands,even as IT girps he tighter.He wobbles,but pushes even harder,puts his all into this final endevour.He runs to the end of the tunnel.Sees light and jumps towards it. As he reaches the edge he hopes its come to an end only to find that his falls.It was all a trap,a trick!
He fell down into the abyss of Darkness!Going deeper and deeper!Then silence. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
He awoke only to find it had happen in the emptyness of his mind,and his heart was held in her sweet little hands!
As she snuggled up next to him,with her finger in her mouth.
Jah Bless
Sunday, 23 October 2011
Giving your word
Whats good people.Its been a minute since I wrote.Alot of things happening.I will get to that later.But for now Im here to talk about giving someone your word.
Its really easy to say you got someones back or that you will be there for them.Thats until shit hits the fan (things go bad).When that happens things turn U.G.L.Y the worst part is when things arent going well thats when all those promises and all mean alot.Cause if you go against them (wether you were the victim or the wrong doer) then it means they were said in haste and not really meant.Its alot worse when you are the victim and its so much easier to turn your back on someone (be it your family,friends or lovers).But here is the thing why did you give your word in the first place?If it wasnt cause you believed and felt the person was worth it then by all means break it.But if it was cause it was worth it then dont.Its a verbal contract with the other person but mostly with yourself cause you told yourself no matter what comes down the way you would keep it.That means even if keeping your word means you will get hurt then buckle up and take it.Hard as it may be.Dont say something or give your word unless you willing to go all the way regards of the consequences.
Jah Bless!
Its really easy to say you got someones back or that you will be there for them.Thats until shit hits the fan (things go bad).When that happens things turn U.G.L.Y the worst part is when things arent going well thats when all those promises and all mean alot.Cause if you go against them (wether you were the victim or the wrong doer) then it means they were said in haste and not really meant.Its alot worse when you are the victim and its so much easier to turn your back on someone (be it your family,friends or lovers).But here is the thing why did you give your word in the first place?If it wasnt cause you believed and felt the person was worth it then by all means break it.But if it was cause it was worth it then dont.Its a verbal contract with the other person but mostly with yourself cause you told yourself no matter what comes down the way you would keep it.That means even if keeping your word means you will get hurt then buckle up and take it.Hard as it may be.Dont say something or give your word unless you willing to go all the way regards of the consequences.
Jah Bless!
Tuesday, 13 September 2011
Life as it is
Dont know who wrote this but it made sense to put it here.
Why we are living a complicated life ?!
- Miss someone? Call ..
- Wanna meet? Invite ..
- Wanna be understood? Explain ..
- Have questions? Ask ..
- Don't like it? Say it .. - Like it? State it ..
- Want something ? Ask for it ..
- Like Someone ? Tell them ..
- NOBODY WILL KNOW WHAT'S
GOING IN YOUR MIND.. IT'S BETTER
TO EXPRESS RATHER THAN TO EXPECT !!!
- We just have one life ..
Why we are living a complicated life ?!
- Miss someone? Call ..
- Wanna meet? Invite ..
- Wanna be understood? Explain ..
- Have questions? Ask ..
- Don't like it? Say it .. - Like it? State it ..
- Want something ? Ask for it ..
- Like Someone ? Tell them ..
- NOBODY WILL KNOW WHAT'S
GOING IN YOUR MIND.. IT'S BETTER
TO EXPRESS RATHER THAN TO EXPECT !!!
- We just have one life ..
Friday, 2 September 2011
For future parents and us offsprings of our own
Whats good people.This email was sent to me by an uncle of mine.Thought Id share it with you.
This is a powerful message in our modern society. We seemed to have lost our bearing & our sense of direction.
One young academically excellent person went to apply for a managerial position in a big company. He passed the first interview, the director who did the last interview, made the last decision. The director discovered from the CV that the youth's academic achievements were excellent all the way, from the secondary school until the postgraduate research, never had a year when he did not score. The director asked, "Did you obtain any scholarships in school?" the youth answered "none". The director asked, " Was it your father who paid for your school fees?" The youth answered, "My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees. The director asked, " Where did your mother work?" The youth answered, "My mother worked as clothes cleaner. The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect. The director asked, " Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?" The youth answered, "Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Furthermore, my mother can wash clothes faster than me. The director said, "I have a request. When you go back today, go and clean your mother's hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.* The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back, he happily requested his mother to let him clean her hands. His mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to the kid. The youth cleaned his mother's hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother's hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother shivered when they were cleaned with water. This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fee. The bruises in the mother's hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his graduation, academic excellence and his future. After finishing the cleaning of his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother. That night, mother and son talked for a very long time. Next morning, the youth went to the director's office. The Director noticed the tears in the youth's eyes, asked: " Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?" The youth answered, " I cleaned my mother's hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes' The Director asked, " please tell me your feelings." The youth said, Number 1, I know now what is appreciation. Without my mother, there would not the successful me today. Number 2, by working together and helping my mother, only I now realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done. Number 3, I have come to appreciate the importance and value of family relationship. The director said, " This is what I am looking for to be my manager. I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life. You are hired. Later on, this young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and as a team. The company's performance improved tremendously. A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop "entitlement mentality" and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent's efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, may be successful for a while, but eventually would not feel sense of achievement. He will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying the kid instead?* You can let your kid live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your kid learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.
This is a powerful message in our modern society. We seemed to have lost our bearing & our sense of direction.
One young academically excellent person went to apply for a managerial position in a big company. He passed the first interview, the director who did the last interview, made the last decision. The director discovered from the CV that the youth's academic achievements were excellent all the way, from the secondary school until the postgraduate research, never had a year when he did not score. The director asked, "Did you obtain any scholarships in school?" the youth answered "none". The director asked, " Was it your father who paid for your school fees?" The youth answered, "My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees. The director asked, " Where did your mother work?" The youth answered, "My mother worked as clothes cleaner. The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect. The director asked, " Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?" The youth answered, "Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Furthermore, my mother can wash clothes faster than me. The director said, "I have a request. When you go back today, go and clean your mother's hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.* The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back, he happily requested his mother to let him clean her hands. His mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to the kid. The youth cleaned his mother's hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother's hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother shivered when they were cleaned with water. This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fee. The bruises in the mother's hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his graduation, academic excellence and his future. After finishing the cleaning of his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother. That night, mother and son talked for a very long time. Next morning, the youth went to the director's office. The Director noticed the tears in the youth's eyes, asked: " Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?" The youth answered, " I cleaned my mother's hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes' The Director asked, " please tell me your feelings." The youth said, Number 1, I know now what is appreciation. Without my mother, there would not the successful me today. Number 2, by working together and helping my mother, only I now realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done. Number 3, I have come to appreciate the importance and value of family relationship. The director said, " This is what I am looking for to be my manager. I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life. You are hired. Later on, this young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and as a team. The company's performance improved tremendously. A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop "entitlement mentality" and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent's efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, may be successful for a while, but eventually would not feel sense of achievement. He will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying the kid instead?* You can let your kid live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your kid learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.
Call me Stupid
Call me stupid if Id rather sit down and read than go parting all weekend
Call me stupid if I feel what is in my heart and let my emotions show
If I cry when Im in pain and hurting
If Id rather go spend time with a girl I care for than go for a ball game with the boys
If Id rather go back home to my family than go drinking with my mates
If I spend my free time with my children rather than loitering around
If Id rather go to my childs event than the work retreat over the weekend
If I dont want to chase skirts or the hot new number
I dont hit on the so called model chicks
rather go back to the woman whose shoulder is always there for me and looks beautiful every morning she wakes up with no make up on in my eyes
If I dont brag about all the women I have had but talk about all the ways I have one woman
If Id rather take public transport than private transport
If Id rather buy a vitz rather than a Prado so as to use the money to take care of my family
If I pause the game so as to talk to my girl
If I dont use drugs or fornicate but rather take care of myself than be considerd cool by my peers
If I treat the ladies with gentle care,tenderness,respect their opinion and independence rather than make them think they are inferior to me
If perceive her beauty is in actions,words,thoughts and mind rather than in having a sculpted body
If I spend my time learnig how to wash,clean and cook rather than label it a womans job
In your eyes thats what you see me as but to others Im an example and an inspiration
So do call me stupid.
Call me stupid if I feel what is in my heart and let my emotions show
If I cry when Im in pain and hurting
If Id rather go spend time with a girl I care for than go for a ball game with the boys
If Id rather go back home to my family than go drinking with my mates
If I spend my free time with my children rather than loitering around
If Id rather go to my childs event than the work retreat over the weekend
If I dont want to chase skirts or the hot new number
I dont hit on the so called model chicks
rather go back to the woman whose shoulder is always there for me and looks beautiful every morning she wakes up with no make up on in my eyes
If I dont brag about all the women I have had but talk about all the ways I have one woman
If Id rather take public transport than private transport
If Id rather buy a vitz rather than a Prado so as to use the money to take care of my family
If I pause the game so as to talk to my girl
If I dont use drugs or fornicate but rather take care of myself than be considerd cool by my peers
If I treat the ladies with gentle care,tenderness,respect their opinion and independence rather than make them think they are inferior to me
If perceive her beauty is in actions,words,thoughts and mind rather than in having a sculpted body
If I spend my time learnig how to wash,clean and cook rather than label it a womans job
In your eyes thats what you see me as but to others Im an example and an inspiration
So do call me stupid.
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