I Hate You

I hate you because I can't spend even a second without thinking of you

I hate you cause I’d do almost anything for you

I hate you cause I can't see myself without you

I hate you cause without you I don't see a future, present and past

I hate you cause you can hurt me even from just a word

And you can light my soul from even a look

I hate you because I am weak to you

You have the capacity if shattering my world in to dust as if it never existed to begin with

Even when I try to stay angry at you I cannot do it

I hate that when I’m with you my heart beats faster and harder making me feel as if it’ll explode

I cannot think straight, I stammer and there is a buzzing noise in my ears

I hate how deeply I feel for you

How much you mean to me and how you make me feel

I hate how you make me love you

How you have become my world

I hate you for making me who I am now

How you’ve given me hope and faith

But what I hate most is the fact that I don’t hate you at all

I am inlove with you and all that you have brought into my life

How would I have known bliss without you

How would I have known to let my guard down and be vulnerable with another person

How to Trust

How to endure

How to Care

How to put the other person before yourself

What I do hate is missing you,

Not being able to be with you or to see you

The sleepless night I have without you there with me

And the endless wonder of when next we will be together.

Jah Bless