You are beautiful
I say that with a conviction
No just a word or a mere compliment
A radiant smile
A warm persona
A heart that is golden
It saddens me that you think he broke you
For what I see is a woman hurt and scorned
A heart bleeding from heart
But not a broken soul
Not a shattered mind
Someone who fell scraped herself severely
Bruised and wounded but not broken
He didn’t make time for you
He put his work above you
He ‘d rather have your body than cradle in the bosom of your love
Oh how so sad you must have been
How used you must have felt
The abuse you felt
The neglect
When you only gave him what was precious with and sacred to you
And yet he gave his away as if it were nothing
The abuse you felt
The neglect
The broken promises
The feeling that you were not number one to him
As he was the biggest and at times the center of your world
He was your sun and moon
Your night and day
You blanket on those cold nights
And your cold glass of water on those sunny steamy days
Endearing words, sweet nothings spoken so eloquently
Words woven with promises and bliss
But they were no more than dust in the wind
He didn’t protect you or treat you as his equal
Yet he claimed to be your man and dared to call you his woman
Saying he didn’t deserve you is an understatement
Rather you were already in a league of your own
Higher than his
He tainted your pure soul
Depleted you of your energy
And left you lingering
Thinking of him
Wanting him
Wishing for him to be yours
And yet you hide it
Deep in you letting it eat you
Devour you and them you utter those worth
“He isn’t worth my tears.”
Oh sweet maiden of thine
The tears you shed
The screams you howl
The curses you utter
Are not for him
They are for you
You deserve them
And you must
For in doing so you purge yourself of him
But most importantly to let it all go
Like the ways harsh waves hit on rocks
Only to erode the rough edges and smoothen the surface
How wood is scrubbed over and over again to the same tune
Let your anger burst
Let yourself feel
Do not lock thy heart
Let it cry and wail
Let it cleanse and purify itself
Let it heal
For no man can break your heart unless you let him
I know at times you feel like you gave him everything
That you did all you could under the heavens for him
But alas he didn’t appreciate
He didn’t notice
He didn’t cherish
That will be his undoing and his downfall
For when again he searches for you
You will no longer be within his grasp
He will have lost you forever and will not find one
Loving him
Taking his bullshit trying so hard
I say again you are beautiful
Like a rose that stands after a fire
Or a tiny firefly that illuminates the darkness
For every beautiful majestic thing has a history
Even a piece of coal can turn into a diamond
Your beauty isn’t in your skin
In your looks
It lies within yourself
That true beauty
The beauty that is YOU
So brush it off
Get that dirt off your shoulder
Pop you collar and swerve
cause your hurt may have been tormented
But it did not break.
Jah Bless
