First Post of The Year (kinda)

So the new year is here.HAPPY NEW YEAR TO US ALL.I mean there was that lil thing about the world ending init good thing the buggers were wrong.Well at least thus far so lets hope it stays that.
In the coarse of the threat that the world would end,seems people wanted to go on trying all those things they hadn't done yet.You know the whole,"What would you do if the world ended tomorrow" hype.And you know things ranged from having ones first drink to climbing Mt. Everest. In my head though what Id do was really simple and also difficult in its own right.Boils down to apologizing and appreciation.
"Only a man who does nothing doesn't make mistakes." And I have made enough to give dear old Everest a challenge but that's not what I apologize for,that initial mistake,but how I handled things after.The things I did,didn't do,what I said and didn't say and even my tone and attitude.Cause in plain and simple English I FAILED.

I hurt people,saddened them and caused pain.I didn't conduct myself as I should've.I didn't bother when things were rocky and patchy or I made things worse by not doing what was needed of me.So yeah I failed people and for that reason Id apologize.

Difficult to apologize for everything and to everyone but its what Id do.

And mostly apologize and seek forgiveness from myself.I let me down I failed myself more than I failed anyone else and its human but I do and have carried that self resentment with me.So Id try and let it go even for a moment.Sounds like a small task but its a lot more difficult than it sounds believe me.But why go through
all that?

Well simple so you cleanse yourself and enable the appreciation to be.Not to be burdened,not to carry the world on your shoulders just to breath.And how would I be appreciative?Well Id probably light a cigarette,have some whiskey on the rocks and just sit down and listen.To the wind,the rain,feel the sun
,look up at the stars and just take a moment.An honest to God moment in this life and be appreciative and thankful for everything without wanting more or saying what if but for that one moment Id be greatful to be a part of this cosmos.Be it my significance was small or large or if I had any significance at all Id just appreciate.Take a moment people.From the hustle of work,school,family,life and whatever and Breathe.A simple greatful breathe.Its what Id do.Nothing grant nothing out of the normal just a simple moment to chill,relax and take a breathe.

Jah Bless

Random Post

Dark Shadows cross

Floating hovering constricting sight

Warmth lacking

Coldness slapping

Taking away slumber

Giving sleepless night

Eyes blinded like a bat during day

But the pupils are devoid of light

Deep breathes on morning dew

And still no smell

Nothing new

Lips left with tasteless delight

Strapped to a wall

Fight with all one's might

Left with bruises and scars

Thrown so deep

That even stars

Are gone

All parts of time extinguished

5senses diminished

Despair despair despair

In the quiet

In the dark

In the solitude of alone

Even the you can feel and hear it

Du dum du dum du dum du dum du dum

The beat of a heart

Jah Bless

"She walks in Beauty,Like The Night - By Lord Byron (George Gordon)

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that’s best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes;
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
 One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress, Or softly lightens o’er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express,
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,
So soft,
So calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!

Diamonds

 I heard Rihanna say shine bright as a diamond in the sky
The mere imagination is incomparable
The beauty that is a diamond
Its cut
Its glow
The way the light hits it and all around it sends sparkles around the room
Magnificent wouldn't you say







But when I call her a diamond its a beauty that only some will understand
We see only diamonds once refined
Polished and chiseled
In a show room
On ones finger or wrist
Around the neck or on a dress
Worn as ornament and we know not of its tale
We know not that only those with the rarest attributes become diamonds
When I called her a diamond its because she came from afar
She was a mere lump of coal
Yes I know how it sounds but listen to her story
She stood the test of the elements
The Earth buried her Put her through hardships
Pressured her tried to make her break kept her in darkness
Denied her her freedom
The Water tried to drown her
In misery In sorrow
Denied her to breathe
Tried to immerse her in nothing but the darkest and murkiest waters
The Air blew at her Harsh and unrelenting
Trying to peel her and turn her into dust
Always in her way pushing her back as she tried to move forward
And the fire It tried to burn her into dust
Scorch her and leave her marked for life
Story of her life
The hardships and tribulations she went through But the elements failed
For their purpose to diminish her only made her into the diamond I see now The Earth made her harder for all it did was break the outside weaker shell but the core remained intact And she became harder and able to withstand all she will be put under
The Water only washed away her dirt from the Earth and made her smoother
The Wind helped her get rid of the rough edges as the water did and her inner core remained strong
The Fire burned her outer layer and heated her insides
They glowed hotter and hotter
The heat built to its maximum
Until finally she exploded
And all that was left was a lump of crystal
A crystal that when polished,chiseled, and cut
By Love
Adoration Encouragement
Hope
Support
And mostly belief
The diamond emerged from the last folds of its crystal protection
For she was always a diamond
At her core In her essence
At the center of her being But for her to come out of her shell
She had to endure
And endure she did
Thus now the diamond she has become
The one we see Is the most magnificent of all.

I have been blessed to know a lot of diamonds in my life and I'm in awe of them. You were ordinary but made it through the extraordinary and have become the exquisite pieces that you are. We love you, we cherish you, we treasure you. To all the diamonds out there keep SHINNING.
Jah Bless

Essence of Heroism

I've sat for hours looking at this notepad.Literally been looking at it as I listen to some music & still no spark of creativity at all.So the thought crosses my mind is it possible I have disintegrated my creative braincells (if ever I had any) or has my writing thus far been nothing more than a whim and a passing phase?In my cleverness I decide to write and write and rant until some semblance of brilliance or atleast some intellectual babble rears its head from the many words that will be written.
AHA!Superheroes.I think most if not all of us can remember a time when we thought we could fly,outrun a speeding bullet,move things with your mind,get angry turn green and obliterate everything in our path or thoughts along those lines.We grew up knowing superheroes where THE SHIT (we havent outgrown it Thank God!)Everything from He-Man to Dark Knight Rises (most epic movie of our time thus far).I mean think of those cartoons that showed us how good triumphs over evil and all such lessons they taught us.I mean we have classic superheroes,Superman,Batman,Wolverine,Spiderman,Electra,Ultraviolet,Flash,Green Lantern the list is endless.But we also have the not so common or they are not considered in the conventional way as superheroes per say but if they had some power they were a super hero to a kind some place in the world.Think of Luke Skywalker,Spack,The Phantom,Transfomers and so on.
Like who remembers the Care Bears and the whole Light Vs. Darkness concept (which I only realise now since it was just cool they had things shooting out of their stomachs back in the day) or Mario and Luiggi (yap I said it) always saving the Princess and the Kingdom (although in retrospect the concept of eating mushrooms makes me wonder now).But you get my point these guy ARE cool (yes even now) and we had these aspirations in our fantasy worlds to be strong,powerful and beat up the bad guy/s.Those toons taught us alot,whether we consciously knew it or not.They put certain aspects of heroism in us.
Respect to the people who run into burning builds,jump infront of bullets,throw themselves into the ocean in order to save another person.Those acts of valor are outstanding and make these people heroes.But Id like to talk about the unsung or rather the kind of people we dont realise as well as they themselves dont think themselves as heroes.They possess what I think is the essence of heroism.Not the typical aspects of bravery,strength or a superpower (although that would be pretty awesome to have) but genuine human deceny,understanding,kindness and compassion.Dont get it twisted its still amazing how we put our own lives on the line to save another person from near death or griveous harm even when they are strangers.Acts of valor and heroism occur all around us,all the time.
For instance something as simple as a person who takes off their jumper/sweater/jacket/coat and gives it to another when it could be cold or raining saying that,"Im all good" when reality they could be freezing and soaked to the bone.
The person at the shop or market that gives you that lil bit extra or lets you take things on loan when your broke.
The people or friends (RE2,3) who when you talk at 2am and you mention you haven't eaten,get angry and almost want to kill you.Then after insulting you for a bit do their best and find a way to get you a meal.
The randon stranger who give you back your things after you've lost them or dropped them in a mat.And actually waited for you for two hours (yes it even happens in Nairobi it was a shocker to me too) just to give you back your phone and wallet with eveything intact and also refuse to take anyother kind of gratitude apart from a simple thank you.
To those we treat as punching bags and or venting outlets when we are having it bad but they stick it out woth us.
Those who see the quirky,weird,retarded aspects of us and still stick around.
To those seen as heroes in the eyes of their children and people around them.They have like a 50 hour work week work two jobs and still have time for the people around them.
To those who listen or ask how you are and how has your day gone and they actually hear you out.
To those who help you out with things so you wont have to worry about them later.
To those who are first in cleaning up your mess (even though they probably telling you I told you so).
Even those who remember you dont take chilly in your fodd and make sure your food wont have any.
We all have these people in our lives and we are also these people in other peoples lives.Granted they may not be typical heroes we are accustomed to but we could not be heroes if not for the compassion,understanding,decency and kindness that we choose to follow and act on and to those who choose this path and live by them
I SALUTE YOU

Jah Bless

My Thoughts on Sex

I think sex should be fun.I mean if two people are only doing it for the sole purpose of a physical release then so be it.If all they want to do is fuck around let them be.It comes down to the two (or more) entitites involved.Quickies are more or less for times when the guy has a boner and the girl wants to get rid of it and they dont have alot of time for longer coitus.And its good to try out alot of things in regards to sex from the positions to paraphenilias,role playing,outfits,foods,places and such.Cause a person needs to know what they like.What gets them off and enticed them and how they like their sex.Be open to trying new things and exploring yourself.You cant expect someone else to please you if you yourself dont know how to get yourself off or how you like your itches to be scrathed.I believe if your not in a relationship then go ahead and enjoy your sexual life.Considering men peak sexually in their teens and women in their 30s means by the time you get married you should know what you like and your boundaries thus making sure you have a healthy sex life in your marriage and so on and since you'll know how to spice things up when they get blunt.Think of it like sharpening a knife.After sometime even a new knife gets blunt and needs sharpening.


Get to know your partners body what makes them itch and how to scratch it.Get to know all their body parts.What happens when you put your tongue on their earlobe.What reaction they get when you tell them some intricate naughty things about your outfit or what about you (be it body posture,smell,gesture and such) that drives them up the wall.Personally speaking what gets me off is seeing how I get a girl off by not even being in her.Its a trick and a challenge.And I love challenges.Satisfaction isnt just about being in or someone being in you.It has to do with everything.Sex starts from the non verbal to the language,tone,words.You need to set the mood so as to satisfy your partner physically,mentally and emotionally.
Jah Bless

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.